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Huhm…
Sometimes I think it’s not good to say
"I’m lonely" coz I think I never be
alone. I have friends and families who
love me BUT now I’m feeling what a real
loneliness is….

Yes,,,I don’t think I’m alone but I need
someone to be here beside me
now,,,cheers me whenever I cry and
doesn’t mind if I put my shoulder to him…

Well, my dream’s too far, yes I know
that but is it wrong if I keep hoping??

I’ve fallen and love and I’VE FALLEN for
sure…but he faded away and left me
here in this dark, long tunnel,,,,

Usually I’m not like this
but…yeah…today, when I SAW HIS
SMILE…I really wanted 2 cry but laugh
at the same time…I know it was just his
fake smile that he often gives me but I
couldn’t lie to myself coz the fact is I
really miss that smile…

And I’ll sacrifice my feeling to see his
smile..

Well, I guess there’s nothin wrong with
me, but one thing wrong is that…why I
can’t forget his smile and forget
everything I saw in him…

I always needed time on my own
I never thought I’d need you there when
I cried
And the days feel like years when I’m alone
And the bed where you lie
Is made up on your side

When you walk away
I count the steps that you take
Do you see how much I need you right now?

When you’re gone
The pieces of my heart are missing you
When you’re gone
The face I came to know is missing too
When you’re gone
The words I need to hear to always get
me through the day
And make it ok
I miss you

When you’re gone…yes, he’s completely
gone…

SEBEEEEEEEEEEEELLLLLLLL!!!!!!!! Ga jadi ke Binus. SEBEEEEEEEELLLLLL!!!!!!!!!!
Lagi2 masalah FINANSIAL,,,,

Uuuuhhh…THBT World Bank is A Failure,,,eeeehhh salah, THBT SMAN 3’s Money Supply is a failure! Loh koq???

Aku tersenyum dan menangis pada saat
yang bersamaan.
Setiap melihatnya, hatiku terasa penuh
dengan kebahagiaan
Bila tertawa bersamanya, bercanda
bersamanya, dan merangkai hari-hari
yang indah BERSAMANYA

Tapi pada saat yang sama aku juga
bersedih..

Mengetahui bahwa aku tak akan pernah
di hatinya

Dia sudah menjatuhkan keputusannya,,,

Sebuah keputusan yang MUTLAK dan tidak
bisa diubah…

Tapi salahkah aku, jika ingin tetap
mencintainya?
Meskipun dia tak akan pernah ada
untukku, aku akan tetap ada untuknya

Sampai dia menyadari…

Aku menunggunya di sini…

Di sini…

Dalam mimpi dan kehidupan nyata…
Dalam tangisan dan senyuman…

Di sini…

Aku akan menunggunya,,,
Meskipun ia tak menungguku…

>>jzt 4…???<<

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kadang2 aku suka bingung
ama 2 orang yang BERTOLAK BELAKANG
sekali. 1 orang menyiksaku dengan
senyuman (kyk yg diceritain di atas)
dan 1 orang lagi menyiksaku dengan
ketidakpastian. Bingung syapa di
antara 2 orang itu yang paling aku
sayang, karena 2 penyiksa itu adalah
sumber cahaya kehidupan aku, mereka
itu yang bikin hidup aku SO
COLOURFUL…

Kayaknya, aku emang udah impossible banget ngedapetin dya. Coz…yah…awal2nya gw naro harepan banget sama dia. Bangetnya itu BANGET. Tapi lama2…gw sadar…klo HIS WORLD IS TOO DIFFERENT FROM MINE… dan gw rasa dya emang dah ga suka gw lagi..karena…ada beberapa evidences yang mendukung statement ini… Yah, kadang2 kita harus sacrifice apa yang kita punya…dan emang sekarang aku harus ngerelain dia,,,HARUS…aku ga boleh seneng lagi kalo disapa dia, aku ga boleh senyum2 lagi kalo SMSan ama dia, dan aku rasa…aku udah ga harus menuhin ‘janji’ aku ke dya…coz…buat apa? Aku tau dia emang bukan buat aku, paling nggak sekarang aku tau, setelah aku nemu beberapa facts about him yang ga bisa dibikin rebuttalsnya.. parahnya lagi, dia ga bales sapaan aku (segitu teriak) several days ago… hih…sedih…I really2 have never had a dream come true!

Ya Allah, knapa my love story always ends with *sadness*?

Emang copycat banget, tapi kata2 di lagu ini bener2 ngena ke hati aku…

Dakedo akirametaku wa nai 

Chippokena yuuki demo

"Itsuka, kitto" sonna kotoba shika

Ienai jibun ga kuyashii kedo…

(Even with only a little courage

I don’t wanna give up.

“Someday, for sure” is all I can tell you. But that frustrates me)

Hmmmhhhh….yapp. Someday, for sure itu lagi menggema di telinga, tapi aku tau, aku sekarang ga kuat nungguin "someday" itu…

kapan someday itu akan dateng ya?

Aku kangen orang2 itu euy. syapa orang2 itu? entahlah…syapa lagi?

1. Keju babi (heu)

2. Biskuit basi (dia semakin jahat)

Trusss? Those two CBs!!!

Keju babi? Huhm. He’s getting more handsome day by day, heu heu.

Biskuit basi? Yeah… I have to realize that his world is SOOOO DIFFERENT from mine! Huh, he’s gone too far, hehe…

Yeah, I guess this is not the right time to write about them…coz it’s just my regular feeling recently (such a complicated sentence?)

g Nggak juga sih. Tapi really…sekarang aku lagi bete banget sama sekolah! Aku pengen mengasah kemampuan debatku yang ga seberapa itu! Tapi kenapa SMAN3 Bandung tidak mau mengucurkan dana?? Tamu2 U.K.!! Tulislah ini di majalah kalian : SMAN 3 Bandung pelit!

Hi friends…wait 4 (our) new FS… Probably we’ll name it "Unpredictable Debaters"…please add us…

"Rewinding" Memories of Aloysius English Debate Competition, 27th Feb-1st March, 2007…

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Good Afternoon Ladies and Gentlemen…
Thank you for the opportunity that has been given to me.

Our motion today is "This House Would Make The Unpredictable Debaters’ Friendster" xP and I as the first speaker of the government team, who agree with the motion.

As the first speaker, I will give you our definition of THW Make The Unpredictable Debaters’ Friendster.

We define Unpredictable Debaters as…

A group of people who likes to debate, who likes the debate itself, and often do crazy things during the debate (competition) , before the debate (competition), and after the debate (competition).
The group found crazy things in debate, and DID and IS DOING some unpredictable things////they found unpredictable loves…they WERE and ARE really crazy.
(such a LONG definition)

And we define Friendster as…yeah you’ve known it…our beloved site…

My Team Split is :

I as the first speaker will talk about the General Reason, while my second speaker will talk about The Social and Economic Side. (Hahaha I love this words!)

My Theme Line is:

We want to answer a question about, "Why should we make ‘The Unpredictable Debaters’ Friendster?"

Well ladies and gentlemen. Since this is a proposal debate, we’ll give you our URGENCY, MECHANISM, FEASIBILITY, and BENEFITS.

The Urgency is : Because, we, the Unpredictable Debaters, knew that we did crazy things…we found unpredictable loves…and we experienced lots of experiences. We DID what other debaters DIDN’T. So we think it’s a good idea of sharing our crazyness with the other people.

The Mechanism is :
We’ll make our own friendster, share our memories and what we’ll do next to the other people.

The Feasibility is:
Well, it’s possible because we have access to the internet!

The Benefits are:
Everybody who interested with us can add us as their friends, making more friends. And also it can reduce our crazyness. (THIS IS THE MOST IMPORTANT BENEFIT). And hopefully the loves we found can communicate with us… HA HA HA.

Okay Ladies and Gentlemen now go to my arguments.

First of all………………………………………………………………………………………………………and so on………………………….
and so forth……………………..

Just wait for our new friendster (probably Afifa will make it today) and get ready to feel our crazyness!!!

WE ARE UNPREDICTABLE DEBATERS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Typical day selalu berjalan "typical". Ayeuna saya teh di perpus SMA 3 lagi istirahat…untung…bebasssss dari pelajaran. gru2 latihan manasik, besok libur, sabtu libur, asik…. tapi tadi matematik, trus bingung,,,ah eta mah gimana nanti.

Kecengan…fine2 aja, sejauh ini, untunglah, blom ada masalah…